It is safe to say that this summer has been my most unproductive yet. I was utterly unable to discipline or even coax my unruly and disorganised mind into bringing all the plans I had made after schools closed to fruition.
Now, nearing the end of the summer holidays, the only thing I can say I did successfuly was finding amazing music and choreographies, watching soul-stirring movies and dramas and doing a bit of reading. At other times I would just blankly stare at the night sky, thinking of nothing and everything at once, however ridiculous or paradoxical that may sound. I can only justify this as being the result of an exhausting school year, plus all the other obligations that needed handling.Maybe it was my body's or brain's defense mechanism,forcing me to rest for a change.
Another new beginning is around the corner with schools opening in a few weeks. It is only now that I can bring myself to do more and prepare for the school year ahead plus starting all other ventures I had planned on doing. However much I chastised myself, there really isn't much to be done about it now. I decided to consider it as precious time spent on me, as that seemed to be what my body needed most.
I daresay I have no regrets (well, maybe a few...) being this lazy. With body and soul fully re-energised I can view this new beginning in a more positive - and productive- way. Fully embracing this fresh start, even though I feel a bit insecure and deal with mixed feelings, I can humbly say I am ready.
Enough self-reflecting and rambling. I 'll leave you with the wise and profound words of Jennifer Ritchie Payette:
"It’s humbling to start fresh. It takes a lot of courage. But it can be reinvigorating. You just have to put your ego on a shelf & tell it to be quiet.”
Have an amazing Sunday evening everyone.
Lia
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